Story from a student

Submitted by Mcgill university
October 30, 2020

My story isn’t really about working in the frontlines of COVID-19 as I’m not currently working as a nurse. I graduated nursing school in the mist of the pandemic, during the lockdown. We were announced during an unexpected zoom call with the faculty of nursing that our college was making us graduate before the end of the semester. The college took this decision to allow more students to go help on the frontlines. When the lockdown started, I was in my last semester and just passed my midterm. As a student, I was always insecure and awaited the moment in which I will start to feel ready to work as a nurse. I had put all my hopes on my last semester, since we were doing an internship for 3 months. Unfortunately, my internship was cut short and I never got that “feeling” of “readiness”. I didn’t apply to get my CEPI licence. I was telling myself that I’d rather wait to pass my OIIQ exam in order to know if I’m ready to be a nurse. Passing the OIIQ will forcefully prove that I have all the necessary knowledge and competency to work on the frontlines. It will give me the confidence that I needed. Meanwhile, the news on what was happening on the frontlines were terrible. Stories from overworked nurse, videos of PABs and other medical professionals crying at the end of their shift, statistics on how many nurses were quitting the profession due to the pandemic. I felt bad because I was not participating, but consoled myself by remembering that I was still an essential worker as a lab technician in my pharmacy. Last week, I learned that I passed my OIIQ exam. I was overwhelmed by the feeling of happiness at first. Then, by fear. I realized that I will never feel ready to be a nurse. I also realized that it is time to make the big jump as we are needed more than ever.  I realized that I was finally ready to make this jump and start the process of becoming a nurse.